well sometime(ahem ahem right now this is wat i mean) i feel i am tired of everthing my life.. myself... my presnt i am just tired and i wanna sleep , i had enuff of this... life is ment to enjoy(this is what all says) but i just cant remember when was the last time i trully enjoyed life.. may be the moment i step in my professional life i surrendered my living for money... i didnt joined college cause i wanted to work and why i wanted to work thats a bit personal to discuss here... but i missed out all the college fun... frnds... canteen... lol as college dude talk abt there canteen all the time... i kinda feel jealous but give a chance i would love to experience the college life for once in my life time .... it seems a bit impossible ... anyways what is not ment for me is not ment for me.. i burnt all my life trying to earn a living though i still do not feel bad about it... but may be apart from some money that i earned i have nothing ummmm no friends.... no cousins... no elders(nana nani.. dada dadi ) all i have got is a small family my mom who means a world to me .. my dad ummm my best friend with whome i can share anything ... and a brother... not so sweet :P but ok i love him trully from every corner of my heart... thats it .... and i have a kameena dost gaurav... humm man how can i forget you.. mere daru ka sathi ....
thats it.. these are the only people whome i can think of when i say i have friends and family.. its just that these 5 people i love them khurana BC... sunnle.. i love u too thanks for beeing there brother.. but except that i have encountered betrayal in almost all walks of life... you cousins... ummmm its been ages we talked...
right now may be i am a bit low.. but none to share with.. probably one more thing i just want to write its FUKING difficult to laugh when you wanna cry... smille when you wanna weep and cheer up when u wanna lay down all alone.. its actully difficult.. i dont know how long i can carry this.... but the day i fall will be the day o broke.. i am not scared of falling down but i am scared that there gonna be no one to hold me when am gonna take my last breath... all the times my fear come true.. i have been left alone in life....... i have been ditched by others... i have even been shown low by my own... whome i still respect a lot.. duhhhhhhhhhhh wake up man... wats past is past... but ya c'mon i wanna cry man....but i still wont cry... i knw i am having a very heavy heart.. but i just cant man...
hey i forget to add one name. hey tarang lol... i consider you as a nice human .. i dont know how long we gonna be friends but lemme tell u... you mean a world to me.. i never had a sis.. ok i do but no strings attached... so when i first met you i was floured by ur stupid looks.. :P and ur giggling... but seriously i hope we are pals for ever.. u are a sweety pie... whome i have lots of respect
Man i am a looner.. and one last thing before i log out.. i hate one bitch ... its been 2 years now that i wait to meet you and tell u wat.. u gonna suffer if and when we meet... what ever i am .. is all cause of you bitch .. its easy said that life moves on but is it ???
now i feel a bit relaxed... thanks for listening to me my sweet blog.. aleast you will be always there (ahem ahem till the time server do not crash) to listen to me.. where i can write anything i want...
Life still too long to live...
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