Clippings from a novel - Kane and Able.

'Don't die,' he said quietly. 'Please don't die, Matthew. Have you forgotten that you and I are going to run the biggest bank in America?

One of the lines from the novel Kane and Able that hits me hard. Loosing a friend can be very Painful. Though i knw that its just a novel and nothing of that sort ever happen but then when something of this sort had happened to u, you just cant stop your eyes gettig wet.

Still Miss you Bro. Hope to see you in next life and will finish all those unfinished business. Lots of love to you.

Blood and destruction shall be so in use and dreadful objects so familiar that mothers shall but smile when they behold their infants quarter'd with the hands of war."

William kissed Kate gently when he climbed into bed that night. 'Best five hundred pounds I ever invested,' he said.

Now thats wat i call investment. The best inestment that one could ever make in one's like.

some things are more important than pride?

another nice one ;)

We've been married for twenty-eight years and by now I think I'm aware of all your habits. You're still as lovely as the day I met you, my darling, but I do believe that at fifty-four you're unlikely to have a lover. So it wasn't all that hard for me to work out that you had been visiting Richard(there son).'

superbly written. hats of the the writter,,

When Richard came into the room, Florentyna was by his side. She looked quite radiant.
'Father,' he said. 'I would like you to meet my wife.' William Lowell Kane would have turned to greet them but he could not. He was dead.

He cudnt even say hi to his son and his daughter in law and died. .. he dosnt deserve that.. every one is destined to die but with cleared heart. there sould be nothing in his heart. but he wanted to say hi to his grand childrens and to his only son but he couldn't. Not a death that anyone deserve.

The beneficiary was his grandson, William Abel Kane.

Any one who wants to read any novel.. i beg you please please please take some time out and Kane and Abel. its a story of 2 stuburn stupid man who hate each other as well as love each other. the stuburness takes place between the two and no one takes the first step; and when they want to take the step both of them were dead. and both do not deserve a death like that.. they were tend to meet each other atleast for one time in there life. but then life isnt fair ;)

Life a cigarette ???

Lets try something different today... ummmm well something different like.. being down by half a bottle of sminroff and then try to pen down something here.. not a bad idea at all.. right now am actully half a bottle down and quite high.. nothing feels like choking now.. and i wish i can remain high all the time ... the only problem is that hangover.. sigh.. i actully kinda don like this fucking hangover thing.. anyways.. every good thing has a side effect.. be it alchohol.. or be it something something....

anyway.. lets come back to the topic. in morning i was talking to a friend of mine and suddenly this thing strike my mind.. like a spike inside my heart... and i thought is a life is like a burning cigarette ???? and then i started comparing life with a cigarette.

Life is Lived by we Humans... and cigarette is smoked by again a human... this time i would call it a smoker. In both the cases time actully passes by just like a burning cigrette.. when it reaches its end.. no one knews .. neither the cigarette itself and nor the smoker ..all what is left behind are the ashes..

well lets try writing about the same topic withut getting DRUNK..

The one who cant live without you are the First to leave you

Well How true does this statement hold " Those who cant live without you are the first one to leave you" this statement keeps on striking my mind all the time. Many a times or should i say most of the times you are stabbed by those people who love you the most, who at times can not live without you and who used to swear on life n death for you. Was that all true or was just pretensions ?? Pretending to love you ... pretending that want you in there life. and if those were true once the what about now ?? when there is a new love in there life ? with whom they again swear for love. they wanna live and die for them.

At once, some one else used to be everything in there life for whom they used to leave everything aside... be it there friends.. relative.. parents.. ignoring everything just for that someone.. and now again they are putting everything aside, again the ignoring thing continue but now there;s a lil twist, this time under those people who have been put aside is the one for whom once they used to put others aside, for whom they used to leave whatever they used to do....

So should i say everything is fair in love and war for those who keep on loving different people one after another ? yesterday it was someone else.. today its someone else and tomorrow may be there's gonna be some one else.. or .... sigh...

For the first statement i would say one thing.. its very easy for others to forget someone and carry on with there life i wish i could capture those qualities and put them in me.

on a last note.. i would like to mention Volcano... one of the best inspiration.. umm for me..

Till the time volcano is calm and silent everything remains ok.. but when it get agitated and angry.. it blast.. and nothing can hold that blast inside be it a mountain... walls.... anything.. nothing can contain or stop the erupting volcano. it melts everything that comes in its way..and the best quality of it.. not even with time it cools down. when it has to erupt it will, nothing can stop it or calm it.. and yes that include time as well. the only thing that i dont like about volcanoes is that it destroy even those things which are not ment to be. but then..

People says time will make you forget everything and everything will be normal. but i would say i am like a volcano and i am taking all the hit on me till the time i am calm but the day i will explode i'll vaporize everything that comes in my way. be it the one who loved me once or be it those who try to stop me. I am a self exploding bomb.. dont play with me. the day i die i'll take each one of those with me... and who all are those.. thats a lil secret and let it be with me.

Life is a big time bitch.. don ya agree on this with me ??

Phases of love life.

Shit.. it has been more than 10 days and i havnt scribbled anything here.. so here i go breaking the silence, adding some fresh blood to this blog. so here i go.. for long i have been thinking about the so called stages of love life.. how a relationship starts.. what feeling we have and then time passes we mature feelings ummm i wouldnt say changes.. but they also sort of get matured. or is that we are getting used to it ?? may be may be not. its still a enigma.. neways.. lets try to put out some overview to it.. its about a blind date...

Stage 1 : - when two strangers meet

Hey the best stage huh ;) aheem aheem... god knows there are millions of cheeky feelings inside one..about The First meeting. How will s/He react after meeting me.. will i be able to impress her/him bla bla bla... starting from what to wear.. which perfume to use.. how to act.. standingin front of mirror and mimicking to behave in the best and decent manner.. Gosh.. the moment of restless takes over.. taking out all the best of the best dresses and changing them one by one just to see which one will look good. Probably the only day for a human like me to plan everything.. i know i knw.. you dont have to look at me like that.. i realy was up on time and was ready on time and ya ya .. to give u a surprise i was even on time where i was suppose to meet.. ok thats enuuf about me in the blog. but even in general i have seen people planning themself. Then you have those butterflies flying in ur stomach which are not that active but they are there... u don feel like eating.. u feel restless.. and millions of those ineffable feelings Gosh!!! aren't they great... .so that was about the time you get ready to meet the stranger.

Now when you are just 15 min away from the meeting. hey can i say the heart reaches its limit for his blood pumping business.. ? aheem aheem... it is.. it actully is. and then you fogets everything you practiced in the morning.. and every min looking at how you are looking.. are you looking ok.. checking u r not stinking.. even a minute looks like an hour... Gosh .. tremendous..

and now the moment we have been waiting for.. The first Glimpse of the person.. Shittttt.. what an excited moment that is... naa..labeling it with the word excitement makes it look small.. its something way beyond excitement. a feeling untold, indescribable. Then they first had a hand shake.. and the first words comes out with feeling of excitement mixed with frightened, and then the two sit for a coffee.. i choose coffee for this occasion cause mostly the first date happen over a cup of coffee. sitting in a corner.. just the two of you.. shy'ing away from each other... trying to look into each others face.. and then smiling. try to act at ur best. trying to strike a conversation ... kewl man .. its a nice feeling... a feeling untold and the feeling that will never come again for the whole of ur life towards that person. The feeling that i personally wanted to capture so that i can cherish the moment for whole of my life.

And then the moment to say Bye to each other for the first time ever. which you wish would never come.. the time fly by and you feel sulk just by thinking that you gonna part away till next time you meet. ok i knw it sound sad but then aint the feelin sweet ??

OK that was for the stage one.. i can go on and on and on without stoping but i have to cover other phases too.. lol. so i;ll but a full stop to this phase here.. lemme move onto the next phase.

A song for this phase ;) Lifehouse - You and Me - I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

Phase -2 :- You fall for each other

The Greatest moment in one;s life. Two hearts beating for each other. always thinking about each other. Getting restless just to talk to each other.

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GOSH i am tanned man.. i just looked at my forehand and its so badly tanned.. ok ok .. am getting back to the topic now.. i love getting off topic in between.
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Now that the two are restless and drowned deep into the thoughts of each other, they will miss N number of meals.. and god knows how many stupid things they would do and then there mom will scold them for beeing so irresponsible. anyways now there is not the same feeling which one had at the time they were meeting for the first time. but the feelings ummmm lemme say get matured.. you are restless but not the same way.. this time you just wanted to be with him/her. and when are with your perfect partner, his/her company tends to overshadow every other possible other things. There are less talks that takes place and more of looking onto each other;s eyes. Waiting for weekends to arrive so that the two can meet and spend some time together.The time passes by.. days into weeks.. weeks into months.. months into years..

You want to talk to each other all the time. first you talk to each other through chat... though phones all day.. all night.. and then one fine day the phone bills arrives and you just had a haeart attack after reading it. lol.. but like someone says everything is fair, in love and war. you start using your dad's phone so that he pays all the bill and not you :P save money so that you can spend with her on the weekends. you try to figure out various ways of beeing on constant touch with each other in a

A song for this phase ;) Gareth Gates - Listen To My Heart - Listen to my heart beat for you...