I have no words to describle or give a title for what i am writing. its like finding a word to decribe something that doesnt exist. anyways i want to write what i feel so that my blog cannot question me why i am thinking that way or who the F%$# i am to think that ways.. today someone told me that i am tryin to look my past in her. a past which bring me some not so good memories of my life. and the question is why would i like to see my past when it gives me pain and only pain??

No, i am not trying to see my past in anyone specialy those whome i love.. who have added a new dimention to my life.. who are part of me cause if i see my past i someone i will start hating them. lemme try to fit this example lets see how it goes. I used to love alcohol at one point of time but alcohol did something to me that i now hates it more than anything in life. suddenly one day i fell in love with water. water that fills the thirst in me. without which i cannot survive. if i would like to see alcohol in water or its properties in water i cant drink it. i just cant have something which i hates the most.

but on other hand its the duty of water to make sure that it doesnt want to adopt the properties of alcohol knowingly or unknowingly cause if we mix water and alcohol the same liquid will the loose its propertiest of quinching the thirst. it will make its drinker more thirsty.

ahhh bad expression and a bad try as well neways.. the point here is i dont want to see someone else in someone. i canot ditch there feelings and emotions. but i would request them not to do something that brings my past in front of me yet again.

watever like always bad in expressing myself..

Simplicity

These days everyone wants to be fashionable... everyone wants to look Hot. everyone wants to have that UUUmphhh factor in them.. i simply do not understand the reason for such a want. People who are already so beautiful, so good looking.. smart.. still are mad for achieving that X factor in them.

I belive that beauty comes from inside. for me the Hottness is how you carry urself even with a simple suit.. jeans and a top...there's a very thin line between sexyness and bitchiness.. i have seen people ruining there lives for that extra appriciation. people wear all those cloths which they are not even comfortable in ?? i mean rather than getting so very concious about ur dress like.. ohh those guys are staring at me.. shit they just passed a comment on me.. and then they ruin there day... a person will look as hot in a salwar kameez as they might look in mini;s .. many people just divert there whole life in looking.. HOT, Sexy, Cool, having that sex appeal ?? what for.. for they most handsome dude..??? do they understand that every thing has a good efect as well as a bad effect.. and like it is said.. everythings comes for a price and there is nothing as a free lunch.

i am a strong beliver in simplicity... nothing can beat simplicity... a human can look HOT..coool.. have that x factor even with simplicity.. just an urge from my side.. be what you are comfortable in.. if you are comfortable you can show ur real self. at the end of the day what matters is what you are from inside.. and not how u look and what you wear and how much sex appeal you have.

Ohh yaa.. all these fashion thing are just a way to hide ur true self.. and many a times it gives them a fake look.. those who loves you.. loves you for what ur ... i would say.. if you want to be something.. be supportive.. be happy... be smart... but never be a fake identity. guys dont have a cnfused identity... know what you are. what you goals in life are.. just fr the sake of tryig to be a model do change urself...

and alwayse remember everything comes for a price.. you might be happy to pay the price right now but.. make sure you dont regret. cause if u regret some day.. you life will become uncomfortable. u can work around with uncomfortable clothing.. but not with a uncomfortable life..

i myself is not the one who follows all this.. i myself is an example of stupidity.. but i learned from my experience.. dont burn ur finger to know what fire is.. it will always leave some ugly marks.

sometimes i also have some wants and desire.. i like things... i want things... something that makes me feel happy. I don't like comparing myself with others but i just cant help myself doing so. i am way way way better than many of the people alive today but at the same time there are uncountable people out there who have zillion times better life than me. i have everything that one could think off, but still i feel i have lost something or i miss something important in my life which can make me happy from inside, making my soul smile an not just the smile on my lips. i am confused many a times.. what i want from life or what are my wants which can make me happy... i myself is confused so badly for my own happiness. its like i just want to get across a right path, make myself walk on it want to see everything settle down without much trouble... peace of mind is something i cherish the most.. and this peace can not be achieved with insecurity.

i am scared of many things which i fear might go wrong however positive i try to think but i just cant help myself following the other way which is full of negative thoughts... opposite thinking.. when i want someone with me i get no one.. no one to listen to no one to talk to.. the one who say they love me they leave me on my own at the moment when i need them the most.. when i want to talk to them the most.. time is the biggest enemy i ever had.. it took everything from me.. innocence.. love... feelings.. everything... and the biggest thing that it took is suppor !!!!!!!!!

OK.. lemme be a copy cat this time as i am copying a whole article from a unknown person named DAWN.. hey DAWN no offence all credit goes to you.. you are the writer of this article and i am just copying it from u.. i hope u dont mind.. and if u mind i am really very sory for it..

here it goes..

We all say a change is always good, it brings lot of good things and we must embrace it positively. But what if the change is for not good?
Say instance, you make friends with someone for there good nature and after a while you realize your friend isn’t the same…now that is a change in behavior so what would you call that…?

“There is nothing wrong with change, if it is in the right direction” ~ Winston Churchill

Kamala was very happy with her love marriage as her hubby was the kind whom she always dreamt of. The loving and calm personality that he had which made her think very high of him. She always used to feel he is so different from others and she is so lucky to have him as her partner. Kamala’s husband was a software engineer. He was very hard working and yes a loving husband too! But as the competition was increasing he was having issues at work and he was trying his best to solve those issues so that he can nominated for his promotion.

“Very little is needed to make a happy life; it is all within yourself, in your way of thinking” ~ Marcus Aurelius

Life isn’t easy with everything we all know this fact. There are lay-offs, office politics and what not, but one doesn’t just go and kill anyone or one doesn’t leave to live :D…I liked this when I thought in mind…how can your job frustrations let you not live … infact I have often seen people gain strength from there close ones and next day when they get back to work they give that punch with full force to achieve the success and desired goals.

“Life can either be accepted or changed. If it is not accepted, it must be changed. If it cannot be changed, then it must be accepted.”

Kamala was noticing hubby’s change of attitude and everytime she asked him he discussed about his office problems and Kamala like a good friend always listened to him and would give him strength and support in a manner to relieve him with his stress off.
Things got worse in the office and it started showing in his behavior too. He was no more the calm and sweet guy. He used to be frustrated with an angry face, always yelling…even if its just a music that is put loud, he will yell and ask what is it? Things started getting out of control …the pleasing couple where only love existed every moment in there company…things started getting dry. There were no more talks, he used to put on the TV or watch movie and this was always a big valley between Kamala and her hubby. There were no more talks, only necessary talks were exchanged such as what’s to eat…where things are kept …am going to work etc.

“A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go.”

Kamala married him because he was different but now she started thinking there is nothing as different!!! The two, once known as love birds… were now strangers.
Since there was no talk…the distance grew and Kamala had to take a decision as she couldn’t live like this. One day when Hubby came home, Kamala wasn’t there sitting waiting for him. He thought she must be in the washroom! He waited for some sort of noise to happen as if Kamala is busy doing something! As usual hubby came and started watching his movie with few peanuts in his hand.

“Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.” ~ James Dean

It was 10 at night and that’s when hubby felt to look for Kamala. It was too late. When he went to the bedroom, he saw the note –

“When life demands more of people than they demand of life - as is ordinarily the case - what results is a resentment of life almost as deep-seated as the fear of death”


A perfect naration of one;s life..

hope it doesnt happen with me.. and hope i can change the path of my life..

Cheers

A very nice song.. typical punjabbi lyrics.. at first i wanst able to understood even a single word wat singer was singing but then i kept on listening to it caust it has a nice and free flowing music.

then slowly slowly i started understanding it.. serched for lyrics of this song but coudn;t found t anywhere on net or may be i dint searched for it too hard...

though i wanted to upload the song here but i guess bloggers.com hasnt provided the facility to upload the songs.. so here it is the lyrics of the song..

jad aa pendi tere yaad siraane ,fir pata nahi ki hojanda
unj ta peen de aadi nahi, ghut yaad na rall peejanda,

daaru peen de aadi nahi assi mud to sovi aa,
rukki missi mil je raal lasside shoki aa,

bilkul hath ni lauda eede soo v khaddi nahi
kade kade ghut laaleda pakke aadi nahi,
arriya kerde mannu gal samjauni pendi hai
aise ker ke yaar glassy launi pendi aa.

yaara wicho yaar mera ek dard purana hai,
pakka dera lai betha, dil thekana hai ,
chup chapite jab yaad tere jad kol aabendi aa,
aaye gaye di seva ta fir kerni pendi aa
tere radi fir glassy ponni pendi aa
aise ker ke yaar glassy launi pendi aa.

changi cheez ni darru jaandi duniya sari hai
ishq rog de maarea lalayi hor bimari aa
dil de lagiya choota nu jad khol ke wekha main
tere ditte jakhma nu jad fol ke dekha main
na mildi hove chain te mal malgauni pendi aa
aise ker ke yaar glassy launi pendi aa.

mannad hanni naal jadoda hogaya dokha aa
peg assre time katida aukha sokha ae
duniya de naal aaj kal aapa ghat hi bolli da
botel de naal beke dil da dukhra kholli da
jad bottle dard wadave gal samjhauni pendi aa
aise ker ke yaar glassy launi pendi aa.

yaah so that it is.. for those who do not under stand something can ask me.. i can explain to an extend.. hehehe..

chao

Why does it happen ??

Now the big question is Why does it has to haapen... something in life which are nt suppose to happen should never happen at all. everyone is suppose to live happy.. live like king size.. have all the happy moments along with some ummm i would say pretty less sad moments ... Life has so many colours but why there is this one color for him ?? and specialy when he aint a bad Guy.. hasnt done much of a harm to others and is a decent chap.. like to remain alook, quite.. in his own world not interfearin in others life..

But then this is what life is.. no one is suppose to live forever. All i wish is there should be a lil more balance in life. but then again it will remain an Enigma. An Enigma that can never be answered. i sometime feels that not even God has the answer to it. He might have created everything in this world along with living and non living charectors but even he cant explain the enigma behind these happenings and why was only he was choosen for this.

May be next time when God create him he might have some mercy on him and will grant a better life than wat was given to him in this life time. a life full of joys, full of love and full of LIFE. When will God understand that everyone should have a life where by wen they die they should feel proud of the fact that they have lived a good life and have achieved something in life and not thinking that he was suppose to live and loved a bit longer.

And now the question on which this whlole article is based on ..

Why does the chicken needs to crooss the road?

just to be crushed by a speeding truck ?? is that why he was born in this world.. to be crushed by a speeding truck ?

No.. he do not deserve this death.. he is suppose to die like a chicken .. to be killed by a butcher and then hanged over Bar-B-Que with tasty marination on it.