One day you will look into the mirror and see how beautiful you have become and then suddenly the mirror will show you something, making you realize that its not only we human but mirrors can lie too..

Dreams !!

One day you find out the dreams that you have weaved, the dreams that have been your guiding factor will come crashing down on you.. and then you have to live the rest of your life with those broken dreams.......

Are dreams the destiny or is destiny a dream ???

My Birthday!!!

First of all Happy Birthday to me :) . Today i want to say how much i love my mom and dad and brother and how much i miss them right now, how badly i want to be with them. Mom and Dad and my lil Bro. i know you can not read this but I LOVE YOU with all my heart. i fought with you all everytime but then you are the only one whom i can fight with, without the fear of being left alone. I know at the end of the day when no one will be there you guys will be with me standing by me with all the support.

For the first time in my 26 years i am all alone on my birthday. living in this huge house with no one to talk too. i so badly want to be with my family... want to see the smile when clock struck 12 and they all rush down to my room to wish me Happy Birthday. and the way they Hug me. two years in a row now i have been away from my home on my birthday. and now i know what is it like to be with your own family. Nothing else matters now. no friends no gals nothing...

I just wish i can hug my mom today. and i miss my grandma. the only one in my life before my family who loved me unconditionally. how badly wanna hear her say my name today. the way she used to call my name "Ve lucky". Nani ma you should never have left. I used to feel happy being with you.

I MISS YOU ALL I SO BADLY WANT TO BE WITH YOU ALL TODAY. AND NANI MA IN MEXT LIFE YOU WILL NOT LEAVE ME.

Betrayal

Take your self as far away from me as possible. Fear the day i decide to revenge the betrayal for it will not be a bullet and your head, it will be me in your head. and believe me that will be the last thing on this earth that you would want in your pathetic life. For bullet will be a gift than suffering. Once am there I'll take over the course of your life and will guide it through the most miserable path. Every step will be taken on the bed of thorns. I will make you forget what happiness is, What laughter is, For there will be only pain in your eyes. Your eyes will want to cry out loud but there will be no tears no water comming out from them, For tears can calm you. you wont even have a jiffy of normalization in your life. You will want to die or run away but where ever you will go i can assure you, i will be there with you. I will be there with you till the time you scum to the never ending pain. To the point you will beg to die, curse your own existence, the reason for you being alive.

There stand a guy on the red crossing waiting for the light to turn green. The moment he see the green light turn on he moved with the crowd towards the other end of the road. suddenly he realizes that everyone has already crossed the road and he is in middle lost in his thoughts, thoughts that drown him so deep that he finds himself unable to come out of it. Only a loud horn of a Truck bring him back to life and he start taking steps at a much faster pace now. It was 3 past 9 in the morning when he enterd his office, still trying not to drown into the sea of thoughts. Suddenly his boss enters his cabin and ask for the piece of information that he was suppose to finish and deliver two days back, But like yesterday he had nothing to give him. His boss gave him a final warning and left. Either he should deliver the file or she should deliver his resignation.

Only one thought was constantly comming into his mind. Something that he wished should not have happened ever. Henrik never wanted it to happen to him again but somehow he finds himself in the situation that he always feared. Tracy had to be operated again and this time her condition was more intense. He knew not much of time is left for her and whever he goes to sees jersy in hospital, he cant stop his tears rolling down from his blue eyes onto his cheeks. The little one has no idea that she is taking her last breath. For Henrik, Tracy, his daughter was the only love of his life. his wife has already left them both in the middle of everything.

everytime henrik goes to meet her daughter, Tracy ask only one question when can she see the fluffy again. she wants to go out into the garden and play with other kids, play with fluffy. But above all she misses her Mom, always asking about when will her mom come to see her. How will henrik tell her that she is at a stage where she mightr never meet her mom again and more to that her mom doesnt even care for them any more. for she is busy in the luxury of life with morgen, a rich man from the same town.

Things were never like this for henrik. he used to be a fine young lad with lots of enthuism in him. very humrous, witty and adventourous. In his collage days he used to be one of the fine men that girls used to dream about. One of the best speaker in the college with very strong and lightening accent that no one can miss when he speaks. He always wanted to start his own business and not many used to think that he wont be a successful business man. But life has something else written for him. on the last day of his second term exam he met raichel. he was never impressed with her looks but something in her always attracted him. the way she used to care for him, always try to be there when he needed someone. He always saw a different shine in her eyes when ever he used to be with her. He still remember the first time she kissed him on his cheeks and just after kissing she ran away. He cannot forget the moments he has spend with her specially the day jersy came to the world.

But now here he is lost everything, in the business that he started because his business partner cheated on him and ran away with all the money, In life because his life partner cheated on him and ran away with one of the richest man right after she came to knw that he has suffered huge losses and is on the verge of loosing the only house that they have. He was left alone and there were only two people he had in his life now for whome he could cross any limits to be keep them happy. But fate has struck him again just when he thought that things are getting ok. Tracy was one day diagnosted with a infection in her kidney. Doctors tried everything but they somehow couldnot stop the infection from spreading to other kidney and then liver and then lungs. no medicens seems to worked. and finally after 2 months of hit and trial Doctors gave up. one evening he was commin back from office to his place that his cell phone rang. it was Dr. aasif. The moment he picked his call he knew life gonna change for him from there on. Doctors have given up completly and that only if miracle happen can save little Tracy.

He was not able to sleep that night and that was the first time he tasted scotch. He drank almost the complete bottle of it with tears never leaving his eyes alone. he has never felt broken even when he lost everything in business, when his wife left him. But today it seems like all the blood that he has will come out in the form of tears from his eyes. For the first time he wanted time to stop. A guy, who few moments back was a firm beliver of life must go on wanted life to stop at that very moment. Nothing can apart him with his daughter but fate has struck him again and this time it ripped him apart. All he could think of that night was of his daughter.

Next morning he took a shower put a nice cologn on his shirt and straight away took a taxi to hospital to meet his daughter. his heart was aching with unmached pain his eyes were swelled up but his face supported a smile. a smile that anyone can tell is a forvced smile. As soon as he entered the room he saw a smile on his daughter face, a smile that was as beautiful as a morning water droplets on leaves. he was relaxed for the first time in last 20 hours. but then it was not suppose to last long. Docter entered the room and asked henrik to follow him. while talkin a walk from his daughter room to doctors cabin he saw many rooms some filled with patiens some empty. from some of the rooms occupied by patients comes the sound of laughter. and some were as quite like a morgue. He was thinking how lucky are those peoiple who will be able to go back to there normal life with there loved ones. How lucky are those relatives which can again share some sweet n sour moments with there loved ones. But he was not suppose to be a happy man.

By the time he sat on the seat opposite to the doctor he was making himself ready for the news which he had always fear from the day one doctors gave him a hint that tracy has a very little chance of making it in the future.

the best place to have wallpapers

ahh... so i have for long being in search of nice wallpapers for my machine.. specially widescren one. but it was always a comprimise i guess.. i never liked whatever wallapaper i used to put on my screen . then today i stumble across a site which has from my point of view some of the best wallpaper collection.

http://interfacelift.com/wallpaper/index.php

here is the link incase someof you might like to see the collection..

cheers

my b'day gift

ohh forgot to write something.. a week back i had my birthday. which i celebrated being alone and far away from my family and friends.

Ohh i think on this b;day i got the best gift ever. :)