I have no words to describle or give a title for what i am writing. its like finding a word to decribe something that doesnt exist. anyways i want to write what i feel so that my blog cannot question me why i am thinking that way or who the F%$# i am to think that ways.. today someone told me that i am tryin to look my past in her. a past which bring me some not so good memories of my life. and the question is why would i like to see my past when it gives me pain and only pain??

No, i am not trying to see my past in anyone specialy those whome i love.. who have added a new dimention to my life.. who are part of me cause if i see my past i someone i will start hating them. lemme try to fit this example lets see how it goes. I used to love alcohol at one point of time but alcohol did something to me that i now hates it more than anything in life. suddenly one day i fell in love with water. water that fills the thirst in me. without which i cannot survive. if i would like to see alcohol in water or its properties in water i cant drink it. i just cant have something which i hates the most.

but on other hand its the duty of water to make sure that it doesnt want to adopt the properties of alcohol knowingly or unknowingly cause if we mix water and alcohol the same liquid will the loose its propertiest of quinching the thirst. it will make its drinker more thirsty.

ahhh bad expression and a bad try as well neways.. the point here is i dont want to see someone else in someone. i canot ditch there feelings and emotions. but i would request them not to do something that brings my past in front of me yet again.

watever like always bad in expressing myself..