sometimes i also have some wants and desire.. i like things... i want things... something that makes me feel happy. I don't like comparing myself with others but i just cant help myself doing so. i am way way way better than many of the people alive today but at the same time there are uncountable people out there who have zillion times better life than me. i have everything that one could think off, but still i feel i have lost something or i miss something important in my life which can make me happy from inside, making my soul smile an not just the smile on my lips. i am confused many a times.. what i want from life or what are my wants which can make me happy... i myself is confused so badly for my own happiness. its like i just want to get across a right path, make myself walk on it want to see everything settle down without much trouble... peace of mind is something i cherish the most.. and this peace can not be achieved with insecurity.

i am scared of many things which i fear might go wrong however positive i try to think but i just cant help myself following the other way which is full of negative thoughts... opposite thinking.. when i want someone with me i get no one.. no one to listen to no one to talk to.. the one who say they love me they leave me on my own at the moment when i need them the most.. when i want to talk to them the most.. time is the biggest enemy i ever had.. it took everything from me.. innocence.. love... feelings.. everything... and the biggest thing that it took is suppor !!!!!!!!!